need to find something to do that will not drive me insane...sadly but truly i must say that i am not happy...why so you ask? well a variety of factors....
life is so beautiful though and i am thankful everyday that i am here and alive and well and successful, well so far...
so far, school is a bit overwhelming but today i was a little relieved that i'm not completely off balance, and i admire that about myself...i know this sounds very abstract and it is but im not gonna go into dreadful details..
today in ESYS 101 a couple students asked the TA how the heck we were going to study for the compiled midterm/final. It's so so so much information and it goes into so much detail. How are we supposed to get alllllllllllll that in our brains? I thought i was the only one asking this question...
well the point is that i felt relieved in a way... i thought I was one of the few who were struggling. I mean the information itself is "OK" for the most part..."OK" although there are things that just fly over my head like a flock of birds? goodness i'm not that great at writing expressively.
well, so far school is just school, and i know it needs to be much more than that. the question is, how do i make it more than that? any suggestions? no, nevermind, I'll want to do them all. I need to find out for myself.
Beautifully written. I'm sure, though, someday you will find happiness, for it will come, never knocking on your door, but fitting itself into your life subtly, as it may--merely to make you happy.
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